stuff all of it and how my life has been ofr the past..ooo month

so whats going on in my life?

freshers week! woo so i thought, actually it turns out to be crap. there are over 20 sites in the university of the arts and they are spread out quite far. this means lots of effort and travelling for little rewards especially when you live outside London and turn up for a workshop which is
a: full ( only 15 people sorry)
or B: cancelled or moved til 4 hours time ( sorry but I'm cold PMTing and just don't want to spend 4 hours doing fuck all when i could be at home doing my project.)

so yeah bit pissed with that but the freshers fair was fun i got lots of free stuff like condoms and baked beans

talking about condom's i went to the GUM clinic yesterday, went with bf which was nice and supportive, and they didn't take a urine sample and to be honest i felt a bit cheated, cause its not a bucket of fun if you don't give a urine sample, but yeah it was all alright except the wait *they said it was quite time...they lied.

also i have been ill with flu. the nights are the worst, except for the days which suck quite allot as well, but yeah i was sent home form work, but mostly because i was having trouble standing.
still not feeling great having ear pain. also my mood is very much determined on how long ago i took drugs, i find myself in a almost schizophrenic state partly being fine then just doubling over or not having anyone touch me.
bf came round last night when i had house to myself and was v schizo with him just sometimes i was so out of it and i can't be very sociable when i'm ill and primarily have to re cooperate and look after me, so that could have gone allot better but bf is being very understanding, scarily so in fact i would have lost patience with me a long time ago.

also decided to have some proper conversations with him more and not just fall back on the sweet and cute thing, so i get lots of hugs ( cause i like hugs and all) but yeah he said to me last night, i forget how smart you are sometimes, which is nice but is also very not good so when i get better we are going to be back to full on nice and smart and sexy and SAM.

but in other news my summer art project that has to be in tomorrow, yeah....well after making it on thurs/fri 4 2 days it disintegrated... i was not a happy bunny plus i was feeling ill and wanted to fall asleep which didn't help but my ma kicked me up my ass and so went have made more hands and i feel alot more hopeful. slightly worried about my first day and whether i'm going to be well enough hope so as its kind of important

honey ( dog) loves me which is not exactly new but just brightens my day a bit, maybe since i'm not at uni yet i'm around more, but i've found her twice sitting in my room waiting for me ( which she never does cause there are nicer rooms in the house)

so yay

well done rach on ur job and good luck in oxford kirsten.

xxxx