stuff all of it and how my life has been ofr the past..ooo month

so whats going on in my life?

freshers week! woo so i thought, actually it turns out to be crap. there are over 20 sites in the university of the arts and they are spread out quite far. this means lots of effort and travelling for little rewards especially when you live outside London and turn up for a workshop which is
a: full ( only 15 people sorry)
or B: cancelled or moved til 4 hours time ( sorry but I'm cold PMTing and just don't want to spend 4 hours doing fuck all when i could be at home doing my project.)

so yeah bit pissed with that but the freshers fair was fun i got lots of free stuff like condoms and baked beans

talking about condom's i went to the GUM clinic yesterday, went with bf which was nice and supportive, and they didn't take a urine sample and to be honest i felt a bit cheated, cause its not a bucket of fun if you don't give a urine sample, but yeah it was all alright except the wait *they said it was quite time...they lied.

also i have been ill with flu. the nights are the worst, except for the days which suck quite allot as well, but yeah i was sent home form work, but mostly because i was having trouble standing.
still not feeling great having ear pain. also my mood is very much determined on how long ago i took drugs, i find myself in a almost schizophrenic state partly being fine then just doubling over or not having anyone touch me.
bf came round last night when i had house to myself and was v schizo with him just sometimes i was so out of it and i can't be very sociable when i'm ill and primarily have to re cooperate and look after me, so that could have gone allot better but bf is being very understanding, scarily so in fact i would have lost patience with me a long time ago.

also decided to have some proper conversations with him more and not just fall back on the sweet and cute thing, so i get lots of hugs ( cause i like hugs and all) but yeah he said to me last night, i forget how smart you are sometimes, which is nice but is also very not good so when i get better we are going to be back to full on nice and smart and sexy and SAM.

but in other news my summer art project that has to be in tomorrow, yeah....well after making it on thurs/fri 4 2 days it disintegrated... i was not a happy bunny plus i was feeling ill and wanted to fall asleep which didn't help but my ma kicked me up my ass and so went have made more hands and i feel alot more hopeful. slightly worried about my first day and whether i'm going to be well enough hope so as its kind of important

honey ( dog) loves me which is not exactly new but just brightens my day a bit, maybe since i'm not at uni yet i'm around more, but i've found her twice sitting in my room waiting for me ( which she never does cause there are nicer rooms in the house)

so yay

well done rach on ur job and good luck in oxford kirsten.

xxxx

I AM NOT A FUCKING IDIOT!

to explain this, i work in retail.

i only work part time as funnily enough i have a life outside pandering to your every whim, i have to be nice to you because i am required to, i don't have problem with this, HOWEVER i expect you as a human being to be polite back, this does not mean shouting and swearing to me about something that is clearly not my fault ( yes because i personally made it so YOUR medicine wasn't in stock, in fact i have a personal vendetta against you and i lie awake at might plotting your demise...whats your name again?)

i also expect that when i give you a refund or exchange for something (i am doing you a FAVOUR) that you are again polite and don't act like i am some two bit idiot and act like i am scum!) because funnily enough i don't want to fight you , i have much more important things to do rather than stand here while you are aggressive and i am biting my tongue very forcefully.

and if i say, "I'm sorry i can't serve you medicines form behind the counter while the pharmacist is away, because technically we can't and it is breaking the law" ( THERE@S A BIG FUCKING SIGN IN FRONT OF YOU SAYING SO) then don't argue with me, I'm not going to feel any more amiable to you8 if your getting aggressive with me, and i don't care if your pharmacy doesn't do this, buy your fucking drugs from there then.

as someone said to my colleague when she wouldn't sell them hydro cortisone cream for their face, "well my doctor gives it to me and no offence like, but i think my doctor knows more than you , yours just a bloody sales assistant"

NB, DON'T FUCKING PATRONISE AND CONDESCEND THE PEOPLE WHO ARE DISPENSING THE DRUGS!!!

cause it won;t get you any favours .

and in fact I'm sure i know more about medicines than you, and i have a pharmacist who i consult who defiantly knows more than you and your 'doctor' isn't here now so don't you get aggressive with someone who has been polite to you and tried to help you.

i don't Care if your cat's just died, its rude and unjustified.

and just because i work in retail doesn't mean i have an IQ of a small glass of stagnant water. yes i have to serve you but i am actually a person with a life and you know what, I'm getting paid to stand here but i don't get paid enough to take your crap.